I do stuff I'm not proud of and yano what? I don't post that shtye hereMy bad bro, my bad. I'm not proud, but something in me needs it. Just puked, again, not very proud. I'm a very lonely, sad, so sad person. One day I'll have goals and be down the straight and narrow.
I've been an addict on various substances bro, I get the cycle. You don't see it coming till its too late. I literally spent the entirety of lockdown off my tits.It happens over time I never intended it to be this way. It took a lot of effort a lot of drinking for me to become an alcoholic. Mental health issues, isolation, wanting to feel alive due to my past is a big thing for me, lots of factors comes into play. It's just I can say I don't want to not drink anymore starting from tomorrow but the more amount you drink the more your brain relies on the those chemicals even to the point of stopping producing adrenaline and dopamine. I'll know I'll wake up depressed as anything and I'll have little energy to shake it off I can't force myself to get up and go matter what I think. It's a vicious cycle but one that I know for a fact I'm going to beat