[Oioi]

Quit. I'm going to stop tomorrow. It will kill me soon

Behave ye sen

 

[Oioi]

Educate me what’s this?

Air trainers and a knife?

 

[Oioi]

On the alcohol courses I go to there's a room of 10 of us they say only 1 of us will make it the rest of us will die from alcohol or other drug substance abuse

Most likely true unfortunately Jack

 

[Oioi]

The fxk is wrong with you guys having so little to do that drinking is an idea? Your sat on your own at home, talking on a forum, drinking by yourself. Bravo gentlemen. Strong choices right there

 

[Oioi]

My bad bro, my bad. I'm not proud, but something in me needs it. Just puked, again, not very proud. I'm a very lonely, sad, so sad person. One day I'll have goals and be down the straight and narrow.

I do stuff I'm not proud of and yano what? I don't post that shtye here

 

[Oioi]

Well at least I'm honest yano

Honest / proud of dumb stuff

 

[Oioi]

It happens over time I never intended it to be this way. It took a lot of effort a lot of drinking for me to become an alcoholic. Mental health issues, isolation, wanting to feel alive due to my past is a big thing for me, lots of factors comes into play. It's just I can say I don't want to not drink anymore starting from tomorrow but the more amount you drink the more your brain relies on the those chemicals even to the point of stopping producing adrenaline and dopamine. I'll know I'll wake up depressed as anything and I'll have little energy to shake it off I can't force myself to get up and go matter what I think. It's a vicious cycle but one that I know for a fact I'm going to beat

I've been an addict on various substances bro, I get the cycle. You don't see it coming till its too late. I literally spent the entirety of lockdown off my tits.

You know how all this will end if things don't change.

 

[Oioi]

As if I would go steroids I'd **** my liver up

I agree mate you don't wanna put they shyte in your body