True Warrior1
I feel for you lad, my best mate has biopolar and she is all over the shop even with meds...
Life is fcuked sometimes for all of us (not as bad as you are explaing about yours righ now) but your only 19 lad and there are better times ahead of you.
Have you had your test levels checked?
You may have low test which is making things alot worse for ya and that will also give you zero sex drive...
The drugs and the booze are making things alot worse also dude, seriously you may think there helping but they aint...
I been cronic on puff for 13 years and I only 25 and I could never see the down side to it, I just use it to level myself and chill out...
Since finally give it up well not smoking every day only rare occassions it made a massive difference to my moods and quality of sleep and life in general. Dont get me wrong there alot worse things out there for ya but being as fragile as your state of mind is you really need to just stay clean from everything except the meds the docs are prescribing you.
All the best mate, you ever want some one to lend a ear I all ears
Take care bud and keep that chin up