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Originally Posted by Truewarrior1  someone upset me when they said im lucky i cant work |
I dount they were being serious, & if they were, then they really haven't a fcuking clue.
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Originally Posted by Truewarrior1 i jus took 30mg olanzapine and 30mg valium. i decided to half my dose of olanzapine to 7.5mg from 15mg cos i was only awake 10 hours a day, so i had 2 extra pills and took em tonight with my normal 15mg. so i hope to be asleep for at least 24 hours hopefully. i feel really drowsy yet suicidal.i dont know why im upset tears r fallin on the keyboard.i jus feel like dying.i have no love life, my sex drive is zero. |
Is there any light at the end of the tunnel for you? How regular are these depressive episodes? Do they outweigh your manic periods?
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Originally Posted by Truewarrior1 i still live at home with my parents and im 19!my only money is money for benefits from the government. all i do all day is watch films n sit on the net.i have no gf's the last 3 just cheated on me.i could die from the dvts, sometimes i hope i do.i just dont know what to do with myself these days.im picking up some weed tomorrow so hopefully thatll zone me out for a bit. i nearly got kicked out cos my cousin told my parents i had 5g's of coke in my room n they flushed it n let me stay but things r bad between us, n i never thought id say it but i HATE my cousin. how could she do that to me? shes like a sister to me. betrayed by sum1 i never thought would do that to me...i just dont understand. |
Nothing wrong with living at home at 19, you're still very young & have your whole life ahead (bet that sounds good
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Do something different with your time. Physically you're not up to much due to the bloodclots, but you could read books or something, just to get a bit of variety into your days.
I think you need company. You've got your parents, cousin, etc, but what about other mates (not your useless druggie ones)? Have you been in touch with any other manic depressives? Might help.
Your cousin did the right thing. It shows she cares about you. What good is coke to someone in your predicament? You're a t1t for saying you 'HATE' her.
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Originally Posted by Truewarrior1 i dont know what im looking for here..just venting my emotions to complete stranges, thought it might help. |
Nothing wrong with that. Just shows there's a point to this website besides helping people get fat.
Good luck